Some stress does seem to be good stress!

This is a stressful time of year at work. There seem to be lots to do, short deadlines and lots of people taking holidays or having summer colds. However, some stress does seem to be good stress, as, when we are up against a deadline, everyone at work seems to work a bit better. I suppose this is because we don't have constant stress at work.

The last few weeks have been really pretty good. I'd assess my mental health as really pretty tip top.

I've been enjoying a bit of hill walking. I even enjoyed last weekend, when it was wet, windy and overcast, or invigorating as we call it up North.

Having said that, I have been stressing a bit about the future, as I am currently contemplating the life sentence that is having a mortgage. This is a constant disaster scenario imaginer's nightmare (or dream). In my head, all roads lead to ending up trapped in a world of negative equity, as an unemployed, homeless, single mother whose kids are on the verge of being taken into care. The fact that I don't even have any kids doesn't even come into it.

Thinking this way isn't really helping. It's keeping me awake and will in the long run, in no way affect the outcome anyway, disastrous or not. It's probably time just to take a deep breath and be brave. However, I don't think being bi-polar is making much difference to this, its definitely the kind of thing everyone worries about...well maybe not the whole single mother thing...but the mortgage/responsibility.

The house needs a lot of work done to it. I'm trying to keep on top of things and not get overwhelmed by getting things done in little incremental steps. Little and often. Although, I am probably more diligent about sticking to the little than the often.

Week commencing 3/07/06

Medication: Roman chamomile
Exercise: 5 hrs
Alcohol: 10
Anxiety: Low
Anxiety Level (0-10): 2
Number of Panic Attacks: 1
Severity of Panic Attack (0-5): 1
Depression: Still quite a relaxed and happy mood.
Depression Level (0-5): 1
Mania: Still a bit restless at times
Mania Level (0-5): 1.5

Summary

I would like to get a bit more exercise. I just seem to be very, very busy lately.