I know it is starting to sound like I am making it up, but I’ve just been stung by a wasp!
I am going to go and look up persecution complex and then I’m going to develop one. That’s after I’ve finished looking up all my other worrying symptoms- like palpitations and the big bruise that appeared round my tick bite.
I may no longer be so paranoid but I am still a big hypochondriac. I suppose it goes with being neurotic.
Mind you, it can be hard to decide when something is worth worrying about and when it is best ignored. For example the mark round that tick bite, it was probably nothing and then again, it could be Lyme’s disease (or in fact, a host of other things that you can catch from ticks).
And I’ve been having palpitations again. I suspect these are brought on by anxiety or by impending infections so I try not to worry about it. The last twice I’ve had a bout of weird heartbeats I have developed some kind of infection within the week. This time it was just a cold. It’s still a bit disconcerting though.
I like to worry myself about my symptoms and to bore my friends rather than bother the doctor. When I had pitoriasis rosea, it had already spread to cover my entire torso before I went to the doctor. (It’s just a rash, anyway, and not worth worrying about but it looks quite spectacular and is guaranteed to clear communal changing rooms in a flash!)
I didn’t mention having anxiety attacks to the doctor until I had reached the stage where I could no longer function normally. I thought they wouldn’t believe me or that I was just imagining it. As for depression: everyone gets a bit down now and again don’t they? I was sure the doctor would just tell me to pull myself together and stop imagining things but she was very sympathetic. It wasn’t just a case of luck either, the practice that I use has a large number of doctors and they have all been great.
I think I’ll not bother them about my insect related persecution complex just yet though. If the millipedes join on, or I am savaged by a jenny-long-legs I may think again.
Week commencing 7/08/06
Medication: Roman chamomile- could have done with more though as I still haven’t replenished my supplies.
Exercise: 2 hrs
Alcohol: 6
Anxiety: Fairly low, rising slightly at the end of the week.
Anxiety Level (0-10): 2
Number of Panic Attacks: 0
Severity of Panic Attack (0-5): 0
Depression: On a fairly even keel.
Depression Level (0-5): 1
Mania: Fairly calm.
Mania Level (0-5): 0
Summary
I have been full of the cold this week and sleeping a lot but other than that, I’m feeling pretty positive.
