I’m still skiing yet, still not getting enough sleep

But, I have reverted to a more bouncy three dimensional form, most of the time. At least I no longer feel as fat nor as lethargic.

Although most of the time I am not feeling as flat as last week, when I’m over tired, as I have been some of this week, I feel really low and a bit despairing.

This reminds me of the HALT mnemonic. I read it somewhere under advice for avoiding self harm. It said - Never allow yourself to be:

Hungry

Angry

Lonely or

Tired.

If my daily experience is anything to go by this is a pretty tall order. If you manage to commute without getting just a little bit angry on occasion and work all week without ever getting tired then please let me know how you manage it.

Not to mention the arrival of one of the above list is all too often quickly followed by another. If either my partner or my sister is hungry, I’d rather wake up a hibernating grizzly by setting off an air horn in its ear than attempt to engage either of them in a conversation that doesn’t end in immediate and rapid calorific intake. Me, I don’t really mind being hungry. Try and keep me from my bed when I’m tired though, and I’m likely to commit a serious assault with a hot water bottle.

However, it is probably true that you should try to avoid putting yourself in situations where you suffer either one of these symptoms for a prolonged period of time or where you suffer all of these at one time.

Perhaps I should invent an edible talking haki sack pillow and make my fortune whilst maintaining inner peace.

Week commencing 11/12/06

Medication: 5 mg Valium
Exercise: 6
Alcohol: 7
Anxiety: Some minor peaks of anxiety caused by work related stress.
Anxiety Level (0-10): 3
Number of Panic Attacks: 0
Severity of Panic Attack (0-5): NA
Depression: Not generally as down as last week, although when I have been very overtired I have been very low.
Depression Level (0-5): 2
Mania: A bit up at times and a bit ratty some of the time, which is often a sign of getting a bit manic which would fit in with consistently not getting enough sleep.
Mania Level (0-5): 2

Summary

Generally, the increase in exercise has helped. I feel fitter if nothing else. However, my moods have still been a bit erratic.